tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16914492103342075552024-02-19T23:44:43.092-08:00DailyMistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08209942927846674217noreply@blogger.comBlogger10125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1691449210334207555.post-90584345979071199602016-11-20T08:40:00.001-08:002016-11-20T08:40:56.795-08:0029 days<p dir="ltr">It's over. <br>
For now.<br>
29 days tho...</p>
<p dir="ltr">Doctor appointment on Weds. </p>
Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08209942927846674217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1691449210334207555.post-12547760284087752382016-11-14T14:05:00.001-08:002016-11-14T14:21:47.084-08:00Day 24<p dir="ltr">Went home early from work today. </p>
<p dir="ltr">I hate what is happening to me right now.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Got up at 4:15 a.m. to go to work and by 9:30 I had used 4 tampons. There's just so much bleeding. Where is it all coming from!? I don't understand. But I couldn't hardly sit at work and bleed all over myself. So gross! I hate to miss so much work. I know we need the money. I know Eric is frustrated. Not just over the money but I know hes worried. I did call the doctor today and made an appointment for November the 23rd at 10:20 a.m.. Not 10:15. Not 10:30. 10:20. So weird. </p>
<p dir="ltr">As I stated yesterday, I hope it's nothing. But at the same time I hope that it something so I can move forward with the resolution. I can't continue to miss work (... due to blood loss? What? What is wrong with me!) </p>
<p dir="ltr">I keep thinking of Jeremy's cousin, Patty. If she had gone to the doctor sooner when she had menstrual problems would she still be alive? Or with the cancer still have killed her? It was so stupid of her to go to the chiropractor all those years for a menstrual issue. I can see now though how humiliating it is and how badly I want to avoid going. I don't want a doctor all up in my business either. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Tired. Seems like I combed out a ridiculous amount of hair this morning.  Nauseous.  Couldn't sleep last night from the cramps and the worry. </p>
<p dir="ltr">I can't have a serious problem.  I couldn't hurt my parents with the news. I wouldn't want Eric to go through it with me. He would tho. Every step of the way. </p>
<p dir="ltr">I'm hoping less cramping today is a good sign that this last run might be over. <br>
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Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08209942927846674217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1691449210334207555.post-25320015648610986592016-11-13T12:24:00.001-08:002016-11-13T12:24:06.392-08:00Day 23<p dir="ltr">Well,<br>
I'm starting to worry.<br>
It's day 23 of my "period".  Sorry to get gross,  but what's happening to me is pretty gross. No way around it.  Today my flow is heavy - like thank goodness my bathroom is 5 feet away and wondering how I'm going to go to work tomorrow kind of heavy. I'm miserable. Constant pain and discomfort in my abdomen, lower back & hips. So tired.  I'm embarrassed and grossed out by my own body and it's taking all my will power not to go hide in bed. Actually, I think I'll finish this blog from bed ...</p>
<p dir="ltr">Ok,  that's better. Being horizontal seems to take some of the pressure off.</p>
<p dir="ltr">My last doctor appointment was 10/6 to follow up on my my previous visit for anxiety. When I mentioned to my MD that my last period was 18 days long and that they're normally two to three months apart and 10 to 14 days, she seemed dismissive.  She was in quite a hurry to get to her next appointment so prescribed birth control pills to try to regulate my cycle and asked me to schedule a physical for the middle of January and she'd check for polycystic fibrosis.  </p>
<p dir="ltr">16 days later I started bleeding again & haven't stopped in 23 days.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Left on my own to learn about polycystic fibrosis - fibroids - of course read every little tidbit on Google about every possible worst case scenario. Which,  in all actuality,  isn't too bad.  Common growths in the uterus. I need to lose weight and, long term, maybe have a surgery. No big deal. But then words kept coming up in my searches like endometriosis, pelvic inflammatory disease .... cancer. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Oh.</p>
<p dir="ltr">I know,  I know. Web MD thinks everything is cancer. Stubbed your toe? Cancer. Hangnail? Cancer. Funny ha ha ... until I started thinking about my full list of symptoms. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Period<br>
     23 days<br>
     Heavy<br>
     Clots<br>
Abdominal pain<br>
Lower back pain<br>
Nausea<br>
Occasional diarrhea<br>
Hair loss (more than normal) <br>
Fatigue<br>
Occasional incontinence<br>
Vaginal pain (maybe from 23 days of using tampons?)<br>
Anxiety<br>
Depression<br>
Vitamin D deficiency</p>
<p dir="ltr">And, of course I'm overweight. I'm 5'10" and need to lose 75 lbs to be at a normal bmi. You can do the math if you want to, but I don't want to think about it.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Are all those symptoms related? Probably not. Do they mean i have cancer? Also probably not. Also, there are several symptoms I don't have. I don't have high blood pressure, anemia or problems with my thyroid. All those checked out when my doc ran tests before diagnosing me with anxiety and depression. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Do I wait until January or do I call my doctor and go in sooner? Going sooner Pros: action towards a resolution, less worry about "what if", my boyfriend will stop bugging me to call, getting it over with. Cons: I'm disgusted and embarrassed by this, I don't want somebody all up in my business with this going on. What if it's something bad? What if it's not? And, of course, a huge con (that maybe shouldn't be relevant when considering my health) is this could get expensive.</p>
<p dir="ltr">And that's pretty much where I am with the whole thing. Hoping it's nothing so it's a non issue, but also hoping it's something so I can get a diagnosis and some help. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Since I'm already laying down, I think I'll nap and try to get away from it all for a while. <br></p>
Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08209942927846674217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1691449210334207555.post-87285251636502272492015-06-15T08:22:00.003-07:002015-06-15T08:22:49.274-07:006/14/15 Photo AdventureWent on a photo adventure today with my love. Oh, what fun I have on these! We did one last Sunday too and I hope they become a habit. Last weekend, we discovered some abandoned houses and kind of fell in love with them. So we went scouting for more today! Lots of cows, blue skies, a hawk crying, got growled at by a bull and terrified of a huge grasshopper. Oh, the grasshoppers! There were so many and all headed straight for the windshield. I'd feel sorry for them if they weren't so gross. Ended up by Grover with the windmills. No good shots of those, but they're still so big and there were so many! Love love love these photo adventures! Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08209942927846674217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1691449210334207555.post-63659353689012686042014-09-15T18:27:00.001-07:002014-09-15T18:27:45.633-07:00Zoo<p dir="ltr">Such a cute trip to the Zoo with the Potter family, me and Eric and a friend of Alechia's named Melissa and her baby Iris. When we saw the Dik Dik's West declared "That's not a big Dik that's a little deer." Charlie is such a doll and West is my <3.</p>
Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08209942927846674217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1691449210334207555.post-72146710897448050362014-09-15T18:25:00.001-07:002014-09-15T18:25:04.625-07:00Devil's Knot<p dir="ltr">This story still upsets me. Those 3 boys were convicted with no evidence. How does that happen?</p>
Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08209942927846674217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1691449210334207555.post-12599824114417264762014-09-10T12:37:00.001-07:002014-09-10T12:37:26.935-07:00Time vs. Priority<p dir="ltr">I have such an easier time at keeping track of writing things down when I have time off from work. Time to myself. I read an article not too long ago about how we all use time as an excuse. "I don't have enough time". The article showed me that that's rarely true. It's not about time. It's about our priorities. Anyway it's something I'm working on. When I find myself wanting to say "I don't have time for that" I think about what I'll be doing instead and I'm sure I'll either find the time or change my terminology.  </p>
<p dir="ltr">http://lifehacker.com/5892948/instead-of-saying-i-dont-have-time-say-its-not-a-priority</p>
<p dir="ltr">My priorities need to be my family, my health and my happiness.</p>
Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08209942927846674217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1691449210334207555.post-17342966100207239782014-04-01T12:05:00.000-07:002014-09-10T12:31:28.243-07:00Hydraulic Fracturing <span data-dobid="hdw">hy·drau·lic frac·tur·ing</span><br />
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Hydraulic Fracturing (also called Fracking) is ... well, it's bad.<br />
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Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08209942927846674217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1691449210334207555.post-81147703122919751672014-04-01T11:48:00.001-07:002014-04-09T14:35:53.595-07:00Paradise Lost<p dir=ltr>http://m.imdb.com/title/tt0117293/ Today I watched part 1 of this documentary called Paradise Lost. I wish I had easy access to parts 2 and 3, but all I've seen is the first. I was appalled at the lack of evidence. I know that the reviews and synopsis say "questionable evidence", but no, there was zero evidence. None. They had an incomplete recording of an interview that never should have happened, hearsay and an "expert" who got a PhD in the mail without ever taking a class. How was this ever allowed in court to begin with? And why did 12 people not do their jobs as jurors when they chose to find these 3 boys guilty "beyond any reasonable doubt" with zero evidence supporting they were even at the crime scene let alone indicating they had committed murder? I was very embarrassed for our judicial system after seeing this documentary </p>
Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08209942927846674217noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1691449210334207555.post-38765336201759677882014-03-29T14:39:00.001-07:002014-03-29T14:41:52.509-07:00Organized cupboards<p dir=ltr>I started my week off with big plans. Clean the house, rake the yard & organize the kitchen cupboards. Ohhh, how the cupboards get on my nerves. Where's the sage? Why did I buy more stuffing when there's 2 boxes already in the back? Has anybody seen the small pot? My cupboards make my life seem very difficult sometimes. Here I am, a week later, and I haven't touched my cupboards. Because after I've finished 3 books, tidied most of the rooms in my house, taken several bubble baths, spent a day with my family and sat on my porch swing with a beer I've realized that my cupboards don't matter. Not really. My question to myself is, why did it take a week off work to do those things? When I leave work at 4, why don't I really leave work? And why, during a busy work week, do I get angry when I lose 30 seconds looking for a spatula? Back to work on Tuesday. Will I be able to hold on to the feeling of life being so much bigger than cupboards? Or will the first time I can't find a tupperware lid send me back into my typical thoughts of 'if only this cupboard made sense so would my life'?</p>
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